I try to keep my post in this blog as positive as possible but I just have to go on that negative route just for today. If something unhappies you so much, you've got to cut it off and move on. So, my "cut it off" period starts now and it's gonna take 4 months for me to get to the "move on" stage. 

It's exhausting having to adhere to a system that every vein in your body rejects. Things have to change and no one can make the change except myself. I feel like I am stuck here for years being the slave of an organisation which don't even give a bloody 2 cents about the people below working to make their ends meet. It has never been a mission of mine to make others happy, it is only my mission to make the people I love happy. So with that, my mind is set on taking the big risky step into leaving this hell hole to pursue something I have always wanted to pursue but was put on hold for fear of failure.

On a light note, if you have a cat that loves sitting on your keyboard, let the roles reverse, have the cat feel how it is like being sat on. The keyboard I mean, not you.